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[Dec. 8th, 2002|11:20 pm]
The Veritable TechNinja
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So I'm flipping through channels, and I come across HBO. There's some guy laying on a bed with his wife and a prostitute, talking about his kinky habits. When faced with the realization that her bulbous boobs aren't real, and gets the retort "well, are you 100% real?", he replies "I'm a genuine red-blooded American, through and through". You know what? He's right. The worst part is, he had one of the most preposterous mullets imaginable. Also humorous is how the parking lot outside the cathouse was full of Mercedes-Benz. Clients, and the prostitutes themselves, are all filthy rich. Yes, I'm absolutely terrified of what might happen to me if I am to succeed financially. I'm already affected deeply by the realizations of how my job is tearing the life from me.
I saw a great similarity between our economy and the economics of a cathouse. It's all in how easy it is to convince yourself that getting fucked in the ass is enjoyable and essential to your success. Later, another prostitute explained the semantics and ethics of getting porked for cash, how most girls will do some things and not others, while some will do other things, but not some. In the business world, it's remarkably similar. Some won't establish personal relationships with coworkers and customers, some won't bend in their staunch corporate etiquette. One way or the other, it's the one that offers the most of what the most people want that can retire early, as to have lots and lots of time to go over how those years destroyed them. Then, there are the celebrities, who seem to have overcome all conscience, and can continue to sink without damage to themselves. The question is raised, are they to be considered dead inside? Then, without pride, of what worth is success? I turn a critical eye to them, but then again, I'm an American who just sat around watching a program about prostitutes. Does being able to critique it intellectually exclude me from my own cynicism? No, probably not.

I guess I'm trying to get at how terrified I am of what's happening to me psychologically. My memory is failing, as it's further stressed by amassing acronyms, contacts, procedure, and appointments. I can tell you right now the IP addresses, hostnames, functions, and hardware of all four servers in my building, but I would hesitate before I could tell you the last meal P and I had together. I feel brainwashed. I'm completely at a loss as to how this has happened, as I'm not exactly a man with no free time. Some people juggle much more involved careers, a college education, marriage, and children. Then again, these people terrify me in their lack of depth. I don't want to end up being one of those human husks that blow about the earth, mentally sedate and easily manipulated. Yet, I do want to get ahead in my field, make enough money for P and I to live well, and to be happy. So I am faced with a paradox, a catch 22. Does happiness weigh more heavily in financial stability, or in personal fulfillment?
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[User Picture]From: thehaloproject
2002-12-08 10:13 pm (UTC)
this is basically the thoughts that have been running through my head pertaining to my own future career. I fear the future my friend, I really do.
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[User Picture]From: witchchild
2002-12-09 05:09 am (UTC)
there are no easy answers here. except for this...
If I EVER see you with a mullet I am coming out with clippers and shaving off ALL your hair.
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[User Picture]From: arcsine
2002-12-09 05:32 am (UTC)
I wouldn't worry about that, but you'd probably laugh if I showed you my senior pictures from high school, when I had hair down to my shoulders.
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[User Picture]From: witchchild
2002-12-09 05:41 am (UTC)
hee hee. post post!
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[User Picture]From: recovry
2002-12-09 08:38 am (UTC)
Well, that last one is a toughy. The question is, do you think you'd be happier financially secure or would you be more happy just living? I'm inclined to believe that most all of us would rather be a little poor and a lot happy than financially well off and miserable. I've been through this argument in my own head too. Just don't give up your integrity.

btw, I have some rare photos of ArcSine from his high school days. *ahem* bidding starts at $5. muwahahahaha....
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From: andraen
2002-12-09 08:39 am (UTC)
Well, Einstein couldn't remember his own phone number. It's just a matter of what you put priority on remembering.
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[User Picture]From: curiouspandora
2002-12-09 09:37 am (UTC)
"So I'm flipping through channels, and I come across HBO. There's some guy laying on a bed with his wife and a prostitute, talking about his kinky habits."

riiiiiight...just flipping through...uh-huh...I've been a victim of "flipping through" too...yup...it's such a horrible thing...we should try to become more aware of "what" we're "flipping through" before we begin to "flip"...hehehe
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[User Picture]From: alceria
2002-12-09 10:45 am (UTC)
Heh, you missed the beginning where the redneck mom took her quite unattractive & virginal 22 year old son (who looked like we was pushing 30) to the cathouse to buy him an hour with one of the girls. The mom and the hooker were negotiating the time limit and how many times the guy would cum while the hooker is sitting on the kid. And the kid is all like "please mom, I'll wash your car for a month".

It was disturbing.

Then after he was describing how he got to eat pussy to his mom. UGH.
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[User Picture]From: arcsine
2002-12-09 05:29 pm (UTC)
Yeah, like Van Christie said, welcome to America. I think I caught that it ran something like $750/hour, too. Jesus, that's more than a week's pay for me, and I at least wear better clothes than most of the guys on that show... It's just amazing. Judging from the people that lived in my old apartment and the number of crotchdroppings they spawned together, pretty much anyone can find someone who will have sex with them. Relationships don't even come in to play. Augh.
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[User Picture]From: nephilimnexus
2002-12-15 01:33 am (UTC)
Didja know the #1 selling sex-toy in Germany is the strap on? And the majority of the buyers are married women? (Read: for use on their husbands.)

But we knew those nazis were like that all along, didn't we?
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